I hope one day you realize how much you meant to me & truly changed my life. You came into my life at a time when I was sooo depressed & down & you showed me how it feels to have someone by your side thru all the turmoil of life. Your positivity is something I’ll keep with me for the rest of my life.
Sometimes I wish we wouldn’t have caught feelings for each other. Believe it or not, my most fondest memories of us were before we started saying we loved each other. When I was lonely at college, you’d text me from your job & we’d talk thru the entire day talking about each others heartbreaks & life. One time you even made me laugh in class out loud after reading one of your texts, haha. & another time you were climbing at work & I told you be careful; you asked why. I said because I care about you. You replied, “aw you care about me?” Then I said yes, & you said you cared about me too.. That’s the first time I think I realized I was in love with you. See: even tho my memory isn’t the best, I still remember things about us..
I have to let go now, but I will try not to do it out of anger.
I will do it gracefully. They say real love you should set free so the one you love can be happy. That’s what I plan to do with you..I went on your blog today & saw hers after trying to find the source of a beautiful quote you had reblogged from her. I should have just clicked “back” but I couldn’t help myself from looking & reading some of the posts on there. By what she posts, I can tell how much you both still love each other. I hope you & she can find a way to make it work this time around. & I say that with hurt, Yes. But I also mean that sincerely. I remember how much your heart was hurt when we started talking.They say God brings people in your life & brings them Backkk sometimes for an even better reason… Maybe that’s what happened with you & her.
It just sucks that it happened when you & I were seemingly falling deeper in love; I feel like I’m the one at loss.. I would’ve Never left you if we were together; I would’ve always stuck by your side, but, I gotta remind myself that things Do happen for a reason even if we don’t understand at the time. It just hurts that even tho you said there was no other girl like me,There was. I actually was your second choice afterall :/. but.. Maybe you & I were meant to help each other temporarily for these 3 years until she was meant to come back in your life. Maybe I was just your temporary happiness until you got back the one who truly made you happy. Have I fully accepted that yet? No. Does it hurt? Yes. But I will no longer love selfishly nor lavish in anger about it..
I am sorry I have to cut ties from facebook & instagram again but please realize that it is the only way I can move on without hitting rock bottom & hurting sooooo bad everyday. It’s better for you too so you can have time to focus on what may happen with you & her, & focus on your son & whatever else life has set for you… I wish you loved me the way I love you & the way you love her…but it’s life. It’ll be okay.
I still love you. As a friend. As someone I’m in love with. As my “twin” haha. As someone I will always admire. Thanks for everything. Even though I’m hurt, I’m also grateful for the time you were in my life & for the bond we had. Thanks for the friendship. Thanks for helping me smile & for the encouragement. Thanks for the positivity.Thanks for coming into my life 3 years ago & for coming back once again last October. I will love again, but never will I ever love another guy the way I love you. I hope years from now you can look back on our bond & remember me..Whether or not things work out between her and you, & whatever life brings you next, I truly wish you well. I will always remember & cherish our 3 year story.
Take care <3